Fear

fear /fɪər/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[feer] Pronunciation Key
–noun
1.
a distressing emotion aroused by impending danger, evil, pain, etc., whether the threat is real or imagined; the feeling or condition of being afraid.
2.
a specific instance of or propensity for such a feeling: an abnormal fear of heights.
3.
concern or anxiety; solicitude: a fear for someone's safety.
4.
reverential awe, esp. toward God.
5.
that which causes a feeling of being afraid; that of which a person is afraid: Cancer is a common fear. –verb (used with object)
6.
to regard with fear; be afraid of.
7.
to have reverential awe of.
8.
Archaic. to experience fear in (oneself). –verb (used without object)
9.
to have fear; be afraid.

That is exactly how I feel right now. I want to talk to somebody about it but I feel like no one will be on my side and I will be all alone. My housemates have become my secondary family but I still feel like I can't talk to them about it and it hurts that I can't do that.

I just don't know what to do. Hopefully my housemates will read this and have an unbiased opinion about my fear.

Happy Holidays

So........what's going on?

Thanksgiving has passed and I pulled a double.....kinda a triple if you think about it. I worked a double at my gas station job and then had to work at wal-mart to get ready for blitz.

MU-KU game is today and I'm going to act like a superfan and say MU 123-27.

I am going to demand from my gas station job that I get Christmas off so I can spend time with my family and if I don't get it, I will quit. It's stupid that I wouldn't get it off when I covered for someone so they can spend time with their family for Thanksgiving. I almost cried when I called my mom cause she did the whole "We Miss You." Then proceeded to tell me that I am singing at a friend's wedding next month so I have no time to prepare.

Rant time......Why does one of my friends have to decide that he is going to be like my sister and get involved with my personal life. He is quoted as saying that he doesn't want to see a nice girl hurt and she needs to talk to my exes to find out what I'm all about. Talk about disrespect. He'll get his. It's already in the works. Me and some friends are cooking up something good cause they're tired of him doing it to them too.

That's it for me.........

Life

So I thought I would update you all on what is going on in my life.

Over the weekend I went up to visit a friend and hang out with her while she gets her third tattoo and that is when I decided that that is what I want for christmas.

I have been hanging out with Allie from SPRI a lot and I like her so I have been trying to get up the guts to ask her out on a date.

Things are great in the household. While I was away for the weekend, two of my housemates took my laptop to mess around on it and changed some stuff proving that Windows Vista security sucks. When another housemate found out, he got upset and I thanked him for it, because there were on it without me knowing.

That's it for me.

I Just Don't Get It

I am trying to figure out what I have done to certain people to make them disrespect me like I feel like is happening.

If you are reading this and are confused, you are in the same boat as me. I am just trying to figure out which is harder, talking bad about me behind my back or not having the guts to tell me to my face.

Alot of my "friends" I found out are talking bad about me behind my back and it is pissing me off cause I hear about it from my true friends. Then the ones who are talking bad about me or telling other people not to be my friend or not to talk to me treat me like I am their best friend and I am sick of it. If you have something to discuss with me I wish you would discuss it with me.

I am not going to say names cause that in and of itself is disrespectful. And it could be asked why I haven't confronted them and the answer is simple. I know it happens but until the "friend" confirms they said something bad i have no proof.

That is all for my rant.

P.S. YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Details later

Why?

Why is it that someone else can just randomly get into a relationship but then require there ex to give them warning before getting into another relationship, when they didn't warn the other person because it kinda just happened.

I am the founder and lead investigator for the Society for Paranormal Research and Investigation and it's an awesome team that I have. We have a new member in the group by the name of Allie Terveer and this girl is a medium, I can guarantee it. After her formal interview it was decided that she would be a wonderful asset to the team.

I am hoping that sometime in the next few weeks that the team will travel to St. Louis to visit Chesterfield Manor.

That's it for now.

Wrestling

Some things you should know about me is that I LOVE PRO WRESTLING!!!!

I know it's fake but it's fucking hilarious to watch. I love the storylines cause there so corny.

One of my favorite wrestlers is John Cena.

Personally I would love to become a pro wrestler cause I think it would be awesome. I would also like to see my roommate Tony become one cause I think the fact that we all think he's this big teddy bear, he could probably still put the hurting on someone.

That's it

Introduction

This is my first blog since I cancelled my XANGA site. In my opinion XANGA sucks.

I live in a house with 5 other people and I enjoy having everyone around.

Nothing really much going on right now so I will end this pretty short.

David